"My spirit is willing...

"but my flesh is so weak..."

Couldnt be more true. So, wednesday at His House, I just started crying. We were singing/worship, adn the tears started to fall.

I'm emotionally lost adn dont know what I feel. Ive got a brick wall/door in my brain that can only open with a key, and its keeping my emotions hidden. I really dont know whats really going on in my head... But the emotions come out in times where I'm volunerable..

I've actually started a song/poem.

So there's two girls that I know from His House, Katie and Raquel. On wednesday, I leaned on them. I barely know them. I actually let myself melt down a bit-and it felt good to have someone to talk to.

I hate this feeling. And I DONT know how to escape. I hate feeling weak, lost, and confused.