Always a child

I love people. I love challenges. I love deep questions, questions that make you think, and think. I love how I have people in my life who have faith in me, challenge me, and love me.

I love my brother, hes amazing. He asked me online yesterday how I think God see's me. And I responded, "MYoungin03 (12:17:25 AM): as a child. whos not afraid to admit when wrong. and hopefully as a selfless person who puts others before myself." I am a child, I have this passion, this thirst for more knowledge wanting to know it all. But I think I can be independant, an adult, but know Im definitly not. I continue to make mistakes, drift away, etc. and I guess I will always be a child. its quite frustrating really...

Is this the right kind of relationship? I mean it makes sense because He is my father, but is it wrong to always be making mistakes, to drift apart? Maybe this is because Im reminded I always need Him, always is there, and Hes the only way??

But I know all this. Yet time and time again I try to be this independant person and forget to lean on God. Why is it when Ive fallen and scrapped my knee do I cry to my father asking for help or forgiveness? And always "Daddy look at me" when I;m showing off my gold star? But like a child, i ask, "why Daddy, why?" and there arent always answers.