today is one of those days I dont want to end. :) Went to church, had a great running buddy, FINALLY gave a friend her christmas present, relaxed at home, had dinner with my teammate and had a BLAST at wyldlife club. and now i just got done eating a 3 minute cake with my roommates.
check out www.dizzy-dee.com/recipe/chocolate-cake-in-5-minutes. SOOOO cool!!!!
My heart is so full at this moment. :)
when the crazzies of tomorrow come, I will think of the joyous moments i had today adn how beautiful the sun is when it shines. and i look forward to hangin out with some wyldlife girls at we the kings concert tomorrow! :) YES
Today's bible verse came up and i wanted to share it.
"But blessed is the man who trusts in the LORD, whose confidence is in him. He will be like a tree planted by the water that sends out its roots by the stream. It does not fear when heat comes; it leaves are always green. It has no worries in a year of drought and never fails to bear fruit." -Jeremiah 17:7-8
Sunday, March 21, 2010
Tuesday, March 16, 2010
I love you too.
God is love.
"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
--1 John 4:7-8
"We love, because he FIRST loved us." -1 John 4:19
God IS love. I may not fully know what love is, but the more I am reading and learning, I feel closer to God, and coming closer to understanding the word. There is so much I dont know about God, but there is one thing I do know....that God loves me, and loves ALL.
We often use the word love in daily conversation.."I love that movie." or even "I love riding bikes." The definition we think of love is NOWHERE near the kind of love Jesus has for us, that we sometimes cant understand how much He truely loves us. I can easily name people who are in my life that I love. And one could ask, how do you know? And you could says words, but really, you can just feel it. An unexplainable emotion. One thing too I know is that God has someone here for me, someday, in His time and His will. However, no one, no one, could ever compare to God's love, and the evergrowing love I have towards Christ. He forever will be my number one.
As i sit, I wonder...why do I love Jesus? And I wonder how many times the word LOVE is used in the bible? I am sure the word love is used plenty, because Jesus so portrays and expresses love. Love seriously should be our top priority in all we do.
One huge thing too that I praise God by saying I love you God, but I really should be saying "I love you too." Because He loves me, and Jesus, I love you too. :)
"Dear friends, let us love one another, for love comes from God. Everyone who loves has been born of God and knows God. Whoever does not love does not know God, because God is love."
--1 John 4:7-8
"We love, because he FIRST loved us." -1 John 4:19
God IS love. I may not fully know what love is, but the more I am reading and learning, I feel closer to God, and coming closer to understanding the word. There is so much I dont know about God, but there is one thing I do know....that God loves me, and loves ALL.
We often use the word love in daily conversation.."I love that movie." or even "I love riding bikes." The definition we think of love is NOWHERE near the kind of love Jesus has for us, that we sometimes cant understand how much He truely loves us. I can easily name people who are in my life that I love. And one could ask, how do you know? And you could says words, but really, you can just feel it. An unexplainable emotion. One thing too I know is that God has someone here for me, someday, in His time and His will. However, no one, no one, could ever compare to God's love, and the evergrowing love I have towards Christ. He forever will be my number one.
As i sit, I wonder...why do I love Jesus? And I wonder how many times the word LOVE is used in the bible? I am sure the word love is used plenty, because Jesus so portrays and expresses love. Love seriously should be our top priority in all we do.
One huge thing too that I praise God by saying I love you God, but I really should be saying "I love you too." Because He loves me, and Jesus, I love you too. :)
Sunday, March 14, 2010
power of prayers
we are in hard times right now. just look around and you can see it...you turn on the television and your hear about another natural disaster, another forclosure, unemployment, disease, famine, school closings, etc ect.
my family decided in times like this how important it is to put on the full armor of God. God only leads us into battle if we are are prepared to win. So we need to be prepared.
So as an extended family, we are going to work with Christ and stand as one to help our family members (friends as well.) We designated Thursday's, as a day to re-prioritize whats important. To simplify our day, and to remember we live and serve for God's glory, and remember the power of prayer.
We are going to fast and pray as a spiritual disipline for family memebers that need healing every Thursday.
my family decided in times like this how important it is to put on the full armor of God. God only leads us into battle if we are are prepared to win. So we need to be prepared.
So as an extended family, we are going to work with Christ and stand as one to help our family members (friends as well.) We designated Thursday's, as a day to re-prioritize whats important. To simplify our day, and to remember we live and serve for God's glory, and remember the power of prayer.
We are going to fast and pray as a spiritual disipline for family memebers that need healing every Thursday.
Wednesday, March 10, 2010
umm. i just wanna be me.
I had my first experience with subbing today. Let me tell you...it was an experience, and thats putting it in nice terms.
It definitly woke me up as to what I have been studying this week. I'll start by sharing a small piece of my experience. Lets just say before the day even began, I was taken aback. So this dentist I was helping out shared with me the day before that I needed to wear black pants and a white button down top to work. I shared with her that I wasnt sure if I had those, but would do my best and that I had my lab coat to wear too. So I came to work with black pants, a white top (no buttons) and my lab coat. I walk in, and the first thing she says is, "take your coat off, its wrinkly you cant wear that. The she says, hike up your pants and tuck your shirt in. Then she goes, i dont like that shirt, and gets a shirt thats hers to wear." ummmmmmmmmm.
So that was the morning-before the day even started!! talk about me being intimidated and nervous!!! After we dismissed the patient for the day, she says thank you, and I go get my keys and coat. Then she approaches me and says,"being a woman in the workplace is tough. And you being a young woman, well that is tough too. People dont look at you with much authority." She then procceeded to tell me that in the workforce women need to present themselves and wear makeup and have their hair nice and clothes look nice. UMMM. excuse me???? there was a little babble about my attire blah blah blah and i stopped listening because i was so taken aback. In my mind, i did what she asked (wore black) and freaking helped her out!!
Never in my life have I felt so small. words cant really explain my feelings. She might as well told me I looked like crap. I was so stoked that I helped someone out, and i was crushed. I was even a little off to begin with in the morning because of the start i had. Maybe im looking into this too deeply, but i cant help how I feel. Im sorry, but in my opinion, that was NOT okay to do.
and with that, it made me really look at myself and think...am I ok? Do I look professional? Do people take me seriously? Should I wear makeup and present myself?? Because in my head, I think it is more important to BE qualified than LOOK qualified. This person judged me from square one and didnt even give me a CHANCE to be me. UGG. And i felt the urge to share, well i dont wear dress pants to work, i thought you wear scrubs, ect ect etc. but i kept my mouth shut.
In our culture, there is SO much expectations, and people who look down on you, judge you. And its so easy to get sucked into being something your not. To presenting yourself as something, but really feel something different.
I just saw a commercial for Old Navy, and its said,"dont give up your dream of being fake.." seriously??
I was so hurt by today..but im trying to not let it get to me. God created me for a purpose. He LOVES me as who I am. He loves that I wear headbands in my hair, dont wear makeup and wear cute scrubs to work. You know, I shouldnt be ashamed of who I am. And I shouldnt let the rejection of others weigh me down in guilt and self doubt.
I feel a lot better letting this out. Ive had my share of "pretending" to be something Im not...and it doesnt work out right or good. Its better to just be yourself. And I thought I'd end this post with one of my favorites...
"Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you." -Dr. Suess.
It definitly woke me up as to what I have been studying this week. I'll start by sharing a small piece of my experience. Lets just say before the day even began, I was taken aback. So this dentist I was helping out shared with me the day before that I needed to wear black pants and a white button down top to work. I shared with her that I wasnt sure if I had those, but would do my best and that I had my lab coat to wear too. So I came to work with black pants, a white top (no buttons) and my lab coat. I walk in, and the first thing she says is, "take your coat off, its wrinkly you cant wear that. The she says, hike up your pants and tuck your shirt in. Then she goes, i dont like that shirt, and gets a shirt thats hers to wear." ummmmmmmmmm.
So that was the morning-before the day even started!! talk about me being intimidated and nervous!!! After we dismissed the patient for the day, she says thank you, and I go get my keys and coat. Then she approaches me and says,"being a woman in the workplace is tough. And you being a young woman, well that is tough too. People dont look at you with much authority." She then procceeded to tell me that in the workforce women need to present themselves and wear makeup and have their hair nice and clothes look nice. UMMM. excuse me???? there was a little babble about my attire blah blah blah and i stopped listening because i was so taken aback. In my mind, i did what she asked (wore black) and freaking helped her out!!
Never in my life have I felt so small. words cant really explain my feelings. She might as well told me I looked like crap. I was so stoked that I helped someone out, and i was crushed. I was even a little off to begin with in the morning because of the start i had. Maybe im looking into this too deeply, but i cant help how I feel. Im sorry, but in my opinion, that was NOT okay to do.
and with that, it made me really look at myself and think...am I ok? Do I look professional? Do people take me seriously? Should I wear makeup and present myself?? Because in my head, I think it is more important to BE qualified than LOOK qualified. This person judged me from square one and didnt even give me a CHANCE to be me. UGG. And i felt the urge to share, well i dont wear dress pants to work, i thought you wear scrubs, ect ect etc. but i kept my mouth shut.
In our culture, there is SO much expectations, and people who look down on you, judge you. And its so easy to get sucked into being something your not. To presenting yourself as something, but really feel something different.
I just saw a commercial for Old Navy, and its said,"dont give up your dream of being fake.." seriously??
I was so hurt by today..but im trying to not let it get to me. God created me for a purpose. He LOVES me as who I am. He loves that I wear headbands in my hair, dont wear makeup and wear cute scrubs to work. You know, I shouldnt be ashamed of who I am. And I shouldnt let the rejection of others weigh me down in guilt and self doubt.
I feel a lot better letting this out. Ive had my share of "pretending" to be something Im not...and it doesnt work out right or good. Its better to just be yourself. And I thought I'd end this post with one of my favorites...
"Today you are you, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is youer than you." -Dr. Suess.
Wednesday, March 3, 2010
Let it be to you.
"It is for freedom that Christ has set us free. Stand firm, then, and do not let yourselves be burdened again by a yoke of slavery." Galations 5:1
God didnt not intend us to be held captive by anything; He wants us to be free. Currently, I am in the process of breaking free of things I am feeling captivated by. And a lot of them I am finding, I didnt know was.
I speak for myself, but Im sure others feel the same way...that we dont deserve to be free. We carry around our "baggage" and are excuse is, "thats just who I am." or "Im a failure anyway." and get sucked in.
STOP LISTENING TO THE DEVILS LIES! The devil knows how to get under our skin, deep within our deepest closets of crap.
My mom ALWAYS tells me, you are what you think you are. And you know what....that is great advice. If i think I look like crap, Im going to feel like crap too. If i feel like Im going to fail a test, well with that attitude, Im one step closer to it. and so on. And when i think thoughts like, "Im a failure.." well the devil freakin wins. I need to train this heart to not listen to the lies. I AM WORTHY...because God lets me be.
So why do we hide in our "baggage" and not lift it up to Him? In Genesis 3:8-13, Adam hides himself because he was afraid and because he was naked. Or even in 1 Samuel 10:22, he hides himself among the baggage.
Why do we hide? Whether its hiding in the baggage, or hiding behind it, why?? What are we afraid of?
No matter what, God loves us. And will always love us.
To end this note, in Matthew 9:28-29, "And when He had come into the house, the blind man came to Him. And Jesus said, "Do you beleive that I am able to do this?" They said t0 Him, Yes Lord. Then He touched their eyes and said, "According to your faith, let it be to you."
According to your faith, let it be to you......
God didnt not intend us to be held captive by anything; He wants us to be free. Currently, I am in the process of breaking free of things I am feeling captivated by. And a lot of them I am finding, I didnt know was.
I speak for myself, but Im sure others feel the same way...that we dont deserve to be free. We carry around our "baggage" and are excuse is, "thats just who I am." or "Im a failure anyway." and get sucked in.
STOP LISTENING TO THE DEVILS LIES! The devil knows how to get under our skin, deep within our deepest closets of crap.
My mom ALWAYS tells me, you are what you think you are. And you know what....that is great advice. If i think I look like crap, Im going to feel like crap too. If i feel like Im going to fail a test, well with that attitude, Im one step closer to it. and so on. And when i think thoughts like, "Im a failure.." well the devil freakin wins. I need to train this heart to not listen to the lies. I AM WORTHY...because God lets me be.
So why do we hide in our "baggage" and not lift it up to Him? In Genesis 3:8-13, Adam hides himself because he was afraid and because he was naked. Or even in 1 Samuel 10:22, he hides himself among the baggage.
Why do we hide? Whether its hiding in the baggage, or hiding behind it, why?? What are we afraid of?
No matter what, God loves us. And will always love us.
To end this note, in Matthew 9:28-29, "And when He had come into the house, the blind man came to Him. And Jesus said, "Do you beleive that I am able to do this?" They said t0 Him, Yes Lord. Then He touched their eyes and said, "According to your faith, let it be to you."
According to your faith, let it be to you......
Monday, March 1, 2010
running.
Ive been having a lot of blah days lately for reasons I dont know why. And today was one of those days....but a PERFECT day for a run.
I ran 4 miles today. And it was much needed. It was subconciously needed...because when I got a good 1/2 mile in, emotions came pouring out. I ran 2 miles, completly bawling. Couldnt say ive EVER done that, but I needed it I guess. Im sure I looked like a crazy person as cars drove by on Holt road, but I didnt even notice. It was one of those moments where I couldnt stop, and had absolutly no idea why.
The last 2 miles were very peaceful. The sun was shining across the snow glazed open country fields, with nothing but my shadow following me. and it was great.
But having done, I feel completly better. however, my legs are rather sore. :)
I ran 4 miles today. And it was much needed. It was subconciously needed...because when I got a good 1/2 mile in, emotions came pouring out. I ran 2 miles, completly bawling. Couldnt say ive EVER done that, but I needed it I guess. Im sure I looked like a crazy person as cars drove by on Holt road, but I didnt even notice. It was one of those moments where I couldnt stop, and had absolutly no idea why.
The last 2 miles were very peaceful. The sun was shining across the snow glazed open country fields, with nothing but my shadow following me. and it was great.
But having done, I feel completly better. however, my legs are rather sore. :)
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