Losing Control

Its been snowing prettty heavily here. And its been a struggle to get me out on the roads. I find myself texting friends "how are the roads" and asking for rides here and there. Whats my fear? What could happen that hasnt already?

I think part of me is too embarressed to drive...if i were to get in another accident..people would think i was a terrible driver, an idiot, feel sorry for me or think im accident prone or something. WHY does this bother me?

I think a part of me feels like I cant handle another accident. And I think Ive seen to o many movies, had too many flashbacks, and visualized too many accidents in my head.

I think part of me is not trusting my abilities...i was able to drive last winter-well with less stress as now..WHY am i struggling today??

I understand its all in Gods hands. I had a TERRIBLE crash last year and He saved me. A lot in my life has happened BECAUSE of the experience --Gods miracle--I walked with just a scratch--I may not understand why but I know Ive grown from it.

Sometimes I dislike this whole "all in His control" thing. Everything I do throughout the day I control--when i eat, go to class, the store, who i talk to, etc etc. But I need to remember GOD allows this in my life to happen. He can EASILY take these abilities away from me. I may decide where I drive, where I go, but i cannot CONTROL the outcome.

Theres a reason for all accidents adn experiences we encounter in one way or another. God will control my life, and Im thankful for that. And sure I may crash again and it would suck...but I know He will always save me.

My notecard for the week...especially due to my insaine thoughts of losing control..

"God will never let you down; he'll never let you be pushed past your limit; he'll always be there to help you come through it."[1 Corinthians 10:13]