So a week ago today, I offically all moved into my house. My roommates werent planning on moving in til this weekend, the 27/28/29. So i spent a week on my own.
the very first night, i had my first encounter with country living.
I was downstairs in the kitchen area, and i see a little furry thing scuttle past me. Eeeek! It was a mouse! ahaha I took a picture of it on my phone and sent it to my brother and dad. It really freaked me out.
I thought about coming home, but i was like, no im ok. Im not alone. Ive got God with me, and my new furry friend. I said a quick prayer and thought here we go.
I made it through the night :)
Now a week later, I now have internet, cable and people living here!!!
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Thursday, August 20, 2009
challenging me.
So tonight is my last night living here in E.L with some of the greatest people Ive ever met. What a blessing it was to spend the summer here.
...What a summer for change...for the better. I think i have grown so much as a person, and especially as a Christian. I really cant believe or really come to explain how I feel or what I have experienced. Living in EL was possibly one of the best decisions I have ever made. I have challenged myself in so many aspects of my life. Confessions, stories, jobs, bible readings, the meaning of listening, understanding Gods love, meeting new people, peace, grace, community, and so on and so on. I am looking forward to this continued growth in Christ and developing closer relationships with the people I hung out with this summer.
I was sharing with someone how amazing it was that occasional nights we all sat around and the TV was NEVER turned on. At school, I don't think I ever experienced this. And the intimate conversations I had with people I have never really got to know, and sharing thoughts I have kept hidden and feeling the love form anyone and everyone. Its amazing how my eyes have just opened to the world and kinda like I am truly seeing it for the first time. My thoughts have changed into a christian-er direction. I could go on. I can truly see what it means to share Gods love and experience His love. And what it means to live a life for God.
Granted, I am still struggling with may other things, but I have come so far.
I am so grateful God introduced me to these experiences, and I look forward to whats in store for this new chapter. I am in the process of moving to a house in Mason/Okemos with 3 girls I dont really know. I am super excited to see what I learn about myself and to create new friendships, get closer to God, and see where God takes me. :)
"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." -Eccl 4:9-12
I praise God for the people in my life who kept me warm, picked me up when Id fall, wiped tears off my cheeks, jumped for joy with my blessings, and listened to my frustrations.
The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again. -Proverbs 24:16
.. but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:31
...What a summer for change...for the better. I think i have grown so much as a person, and especially as a Christian. I really cant believe or really come to explain how I feel or what I have experienced. Living in EL was possibly one of the best decisions I have ever made. I have challenged myself in so many aspects of my life. Confessions, stories, jobs, bible readings, the meaning of listening, understanding Gods love, meeting new people, peace, grace, community, and so on and so on. I am looking forward to this continued growth in Christ and developing closer relationships with the people I hung out with this summer.
I was sharing with someone how amazing it was that occasional nights we all sat around and the TV was NEVER turned on. At school, I don't think I ever experienced this. And the intimate conversations I had with people I have never really got to know, and sharing thoughts I have kept hidden and feeling the love form anyone and everyone. Its amazing how my eyes have just opened to the world and kinda like I am truly seeing it for the first time. My thoughts have changed into a christian-er direction. I could go on. I can truly see what it means to share Gods love and experience His love. And what it means to live a life for God.
Granted, I am still struggling with may other things, but I have come so far.
I am so grateful God introduced me to these experiences, and I look forward to whats in store for this new chapter. I am in the process of moving to a house in Mason/Okemos with 3 girls I dont really know. I am super excited to see what I learn about myself and to create new friendships, get closer to God, and see where God takes me. :)
"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." -Eccl 4:9-12
I praise God for the people in my life who kept me warm, picked me up when Id fall, wiped tears off my cheeks, jumped for joy with my blessings, and listened to my frustrations.
The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again. -Proverbs 24:16
.. but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:31
Friday, August 14, 2009
goals.
Meeting our goals. Its funny how you create so many goals, yet how many are ever accomplished? I'll eat better, make smarter decisions, actually make decisions, pray more, run harder, listen better, renew an old friendship, n so on n so on.
I feel like so many people struggle with this-myself included, the idea of not following through with ideas.
I find it hard to get started, but it gets better.
Take this whole marathon thing I'm attempting to do. I had tried to "train" this spring, but it fell through. But this time, i took the step to sign up for one, paid for it, and here i go. Running...can be rather difficult. It sucks starting out because your body hurts, your tired, out of breath, experience injury ect. I kinda feel like its like starting a relationship with God. It can be hard to start, your mind emotionally forgetting the past, letting all your fears and worries up to Him, dealing with temptations, and so forth. But the closer we become to God, the easier it should be.
So that's where I think I am at. I am beginning the training, and well sometimes it sucks. Training's difficult...things don't come instantly. I cant expect the road to be easy, but i know its getting easier. :)
But every time I put on a pair of sneakers, its like OK God, where are we headed today?
I feel like so many people struggle with this-myself included, the idea of not following through with ideas.
I find it hard to get started, but it gets better.
Take this whole marathon thing I'm attempting to do. I had tried to "train" this spring, but it fell through. But this time, i took the step to sign up for one, paid for it, and here i go. Running...can be rather difficult. It sucks starting out because your body hurts, your tired, out of breath, experience injury ect. I kinda feel like its like starting a relationship with God. It can be hard to start, your mind emotionally forgetting the past, letting all your fears and worries up to Him, dealing with temptations, and so forth. But the closer we become to God, the easier it should be.
So that's where I think I am at. I am beginning the training, and well sometimes it sucks. Training's difficult...things don't come instantly. I cant expect the road to be easy, but i know its getting easier. :)
But every time I put on a pair of sneakers, its like OK God, where are we headed today?
Sunday, August 9, 2009
i dont care..
I am the type of person who sucks at making decisions. When i say "i don't care," I honestly sometimes don't (depending on the type of decision). For example, what do we want to do tonight? I am 100% positive that I would be happy doing pretty much anything. I just LOVE the company, and spending time with people. I know I frustrate people with this. This is something I really want to work on. How can I come about to being better at this?
I think this too might be why I haven't picked a job, picked where I want to go, or where my next step is. I think I need to grow to be able to make decisions. I feel like I could be happy anywhere. I need to start more aggressive and really look into this some more.
Does it really come down that I have absolutely no idea what I want?
I think this too might be why I haven't picked a job, picked where I want to go, or where my next step is. I think I need to grow to be able to make decisions. I feel like I could be happy anywhere. I need to start more aggressive and really look into this some more.
Does it really come down that I have absolutely no idea what I want?
Sunday, July 26, 2009
TIME. GOALS. PATIENCE.
I have officially signed up for the Detroit 1/2 Marathon in October. Am I crazy? I might be...but this is something I am challenging myself to do.
I haven't ran in a while. And that first run...i was thinking "alright, peice of cake.
SIKE. I was dying of exhaustion.
I think what I struggled the most with on my first run was that I used to be able to not run for weeks and be able to jump right in.
But things take time, patience, practice, and down right TIME. This is something I am pushing myself to do. Take TIME. Be PATIENT. Set GOALS.
Results are not instant. Things take TIME, GOALS, and PATIENCE.
I am using these 3 words with my faith. I want a close relationship with God. But that, like running, isn't something instant. I have to spend TIME with Him, have PATIENCE with Him when I cant hear Him or understand Him, and I need to see the ultimate GOAL of a life as a servant.
I haven't ran in a while. And that first run...i was thinking "alright, peice of cake.
SIKE. I was dying of exhaustion.
I think what I struggled the most with on my first run was that I used to be able to not run for weeks and be able to jump right in.
But things take time, patience, practice, and down right TIME. This is something I am pushing myself to do. Take TIME. Be PATIENT. Set GOALS.
Results are not instant. Things take TIME, GOALS, and PATIENCE.
I am using these 3 words with my faith. I want a close relationship with God. But that, like running, isn't something instant. I have to spend TIME with Him, have PATIENCE with Him when I cant hear Him or understand Him, and I need to see the ultimate GOAL of a life as a servant.
Wednesday, June 17, 2009
Starting to listen
I have a hearing loss. Yup. I said it. :) Hearing loss in my right ear-severe to profound. Yup.
Not many people know this. Its something I have hidden from my entire life, but its something that affects me in every day since forever. Each whisper, note taking, group discussions, etc etc. I find myself piecing together conversations and hoping that's what they said, reading lips, and sometimes even smiling/laughing because I have no idea what they said, and didn't want people to know etc etc. Its quite exhausting, focusing and straining to listen all the time. With the hearing loss, I always felt different then everyone else, and I didn't want people to know me as the "deaf girl". I always felt so alone too, because no one knows what its like. I have a different condition. Hearing aids don't work, so its not visible. And the condition I have is something old people get, and my whole life,"your so young." after hearing why. And its frustrating too because i think i hear the word cat and you really said boat. I think this could be where I say random comments because i think I heard someone talking about something completely different.
This is something I want to embrace and fully accept. God created me the way He wanted me to be. I should be embracing Him, and thanking Him for even allowing me to hear in the other ear, and making me different.
I had the best conversations with Woj sunday. What a blessing she is, and she has amazing gifts & talents :) I shared with her about my hearing loss, and my hatred of audiologists and hearing tests, my struggles to hear, and my embarrassment of my condition. She challenged me to face my fears and to get my hearing checked. YIKES. I am determined to follow through, to listen to her suggestion...no matter how freaked I am about the results. I'll do it before summer is over...yikes. I'm scared to see if the condition moved to the left ear...
But this idea of hearing and listening ponders more thoughts within myself. Ears are amazing and quite a gift. But SO many of us take advantage of listening well. How WELL are we listening??
Maybe not even too with "literal listening" but by listening to God. Are we willing and listening to what is in Gods word? Are we paying attention to His word? Or do we listen to what we want to hear, like in 2 Timothy 4:3-4 and fall short. And are we listening to what people aren't saying? So many questions, thoughts on listening. I may have a hearing loss, but I'm going to listen to what others aren't saying, and to listen and believe to what God is saying.
Not many people know this. Its something I have hidden from my entire life, but its something that affects me in every day since forever. Each whisper, note taking, group discussions, etc etc. I find myself piecing together conversations and hoping that's what they said, reading lips, and sometimes even smiling/laughing because I have no idea what they said, and didn't want people to know etc etc. Its quite exhausting, focusing and straining to listen all the time. With the hearing loss, I always felt different then everyone else, and I didn't want people to know me as the "deaf girl". I always felt so alone too, because no one knows what its like. I have a different condition. Hearing aids don't work, so its not visible. And the condition I have is something old people get, and my whole life,"your so young." after hearing why. And its frustrating too because i think i hear the word cat and you really said boat. I think this could be where I say random comments because i think I heard someone talking about something completely different.
This is something I want to embrace and fully accept. God created me the way He wanted me to be. I should be embracing Him, and thanking Him for even allowing me to hear in the other ear, and making me different.
I had the best conversations with Woj sunday. What a blessing she is, and she has amazing gifts & talents :) I shared with her about my hearing loss, and my hatred of audiologists and hearing tests, my struggles to hear, and my embarrassment of my condition. She challenged me to face my fears and to get my hearing checked. YIKES. I am determined to follow through, to listen to her suggestion...no matter how freaked I am about the results. I'll do it before summer is over...yikes. I'm scared to see if the condition moved to the left ear...
But this idea of hearing and listening ponders more thoughts within myself. Ears are amazing and quite a gift. But SO many of us take advantage of listening well. How WELL are we listening??
Maybe not even too with "literal listening" but by listening to God. Are we willing and listening to what is in Gods word? Are we paying attention to His word? Or do we listen to what we want to hear, like in 2 Timothy 4:3-4 and fall short. And are we listening to what people aren't saying? So many questions, thoughts on listening. I may have a hearing loss, but I'm going to listen to what others aren't saying, and to listen and believe to what God is saying.
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