furry friend

So a week ago today, I offically all moved into my house. My roommates werent planning on moving in til this weekend, the 27/28/29. So i spent a week on my own.

the very first night, i had my first encounter with country living.

I was downstairs in the kitchen area, and i see a little furry thing scuttle past me. Eeeek! It was a mouse! ahaha I took a picture of it on my phone and sent it to my brother and dad. It really freaked me out.

I thought about coming home, but i was like, no im ok. Im not alone. Ive got God with me, and my new furry friend. I said a quick prayer and thought here we go.

I made it through the night :)

Now a week later, I now have internet, cable and people living here!!!

challenging me.

So tonight is my last night living here in E.L with some of the greatest people Ive ever met. What a blessing it was to spend the summer here.

...What a summer for change...for the better. I think i have grown so much as a person, and especially as a Christian. I really cant believe or really come to explain how I feel or what I have experienced. Living in EL was possibly one of the best decisions I have ever made. I have challenged myself in so many aspects of my life. Confessions, stories, jobs, bible readings, the meaning of listening, understanding Gods love, meeting new people, peace, grace, community, and so on and so on. I am looking forward to this continued growth in Christ and developing closer relationships with the people I hung out with this summer.

I was sharing with someone how amazing it was that occasional nights we all sat around and the TV was NEVER turned on. At school, I don't think I ever experienced this. And the intimate conversations I had with people I have never really got to know, and sharing thoughts I have kept hidden and feeling the love form anyone and everyone. Its amazing how my eyes have just opened to the world and kinda like I am truly seeing it for the first time. My thoughts have changed into a christian-er direction. I could go on. I can truly see what it means to share Gods love and experience His love. And what it means to live a life for God.

Granted, I am still struggling with may other things, but I have come so far.

I am so grateful God introduced me to these experiences, and I look forward to whats in store for this new chapter. I am in the process of moving to a house in Mason/Okemos with 3 girls I dont really know. I am super excited to see what I learn about myself and to create new friendships, get closer to God, and see where God takes me. :)

"Two are better than one, because they have a good return for their work:
If one falls down, his friend can help him up. But pity the man who falls and has no one to help him up! Also, if two lie down together, they will keep warm. But how can one keep warm alone? Though one may be overpowered, two can defend themselves. A cord of three strands is not quickly broken." -Eccl 4:9-12

I praise God for the people in my life who kept me warm, picked me up when Id fall, wiped tears off my cheeks, jumped for joy with my blessings, and listened to my frustrations.

The godly may trip seven times, but they will get up again. -Proverbs 24:16

.. but those who hope in the LORD will renew their strength. They will soar on wings like eagles; they will run and not grow weary, they will walk and not be faint. -Isaiah 40:31

goals.

Meeting our goals. Its funny how you create so many goals, yet how many are ever accomplished? I'll eat better, make smarter decisions, actually make decisions, pray more, run harder, listen better, renew an old friendship, n so on n so on.

I feel like so many people struggle with this-myself included, the idea of not following through with ideas.

I find it hard to get started, but it gets better.

Take this whole marathon thing I'm attempting to do. I had tried to "train" this spring, but it fell through. But this time, i took the step to sign up for one, paid for it, and here i go. Running...can be rather difficult. It sucks starting out because your body hurts, your tired, out of breath, experience injury ect. I kinda feel like its like starting a relationship with God. It can be hard to start, your mind emotionally forgetting the past, letting all your fears and worries up to Him, dealing with temptations, and so forth. But the closer we become to God, the easier it should be.

So that's where I think I am at. I am beginning the training, and well sometimes it sucks. Training's difficult...things don't come instantly. I cant expect the road to be easy, but i know its getting easier. :)

But every time I put on a pair of sneakers, its like OK God, where are we headed today?

i dont care..

I am the type of person who sucks at making decisions. When i say "i don't care," I honestly sometimes don't (depending on the type of decision). For example, what do we want to do tonight? I am 100% positive that I would be happy doing pretty much anything. I just LOVE the company, and spending time with people. I know I frustrate people with this. This is something I really want to work on. How can I come about to being better at this?

I think this too might be why I haven't picked a job, picked where I want to go, or where my next step is. I think I need to grow to be able to make decisions. I feel like I could be happy anywhere. I need to start more aggressive and really look into this some more.

Does it really come down that I have absolutely no idea what I want?